BEING DISSATISFIED

Dissatisfaction seems the natural condition of the Christian, not inner peace, but restless seeking.
This was underlined for me by this morning’s Mass reading from Luke 13: 23-24: “Someone asked Jesus: “Lord, are only a few people going to be saved?”  He said to them, “Make every effort to enter through the narrow door, because many, I tell you, will try to enter and will not be able to…”
As a teacher, this restlessness manifests itself in knowing that whatever I do is not enough – now this isn’t a sign of self-justifying irritation, rather that the teacher is not only called to keep rethinking how they teach, at every lesson, every moment.
The energy that drives us on is not a needy energy, the negative implosions of the ego’s need for recognition, but a heart-deep response to the Holy Spirit who calls us to a deep attentiveness.
All teachers know that a major part of what drives them is not only the call to become better at teaching, but also deep pastoral attentiveness, knowing that what they see, and what lies within a person, can be very different, and that all human beings carry a hidden cry for understanding.
Hence, teachers understand very well the call to the restless heart that today’s Gospel makes.